Sunday, July 15, 2012

U.S. Navy SEALs: The Mission to Kill Osama bin Laden

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The U.S. Navy SEALs—named for the three environments from which they operate (SEa, Air, Land)—was organized and created during World War II and over the past seventy years have taken the lead in many special operations missions that have protected the United States. In this quick read, Hans Halberstadt writes about the SEALs's most famous mission—finding and killing Osama bin Laden in Abbottabad, Afghanistan, on May 1st and 2nd, 2011. Halberstadt writes about… (more)

The U.S. Navy SEALs—named for the three environments from which they operate (SEa, Air, Land)—was organized and created during World War II and over the past seventy years have taken the lead in many special operations missions that have protected the United States. In this quick read, Hans Halberstadt writes about the SEALs's most famous mission—finding and killing Osama bin Laden in Abbottabad, Afghanistan, on May 1st and 2nd, 2011. Halberstadt writes about the art of the SEALs raid, the importance of safe houses, the escape-and-evasion plan, launching the mission from Pakistan, the basics of the raid, as well as the aftermath of the bin Laden mission. This quick read also includes current U.S. Navy SEALs speaking about their profession and all-encompassing lifestyle in their own words.

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Wuthering Heights

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Wives and Daughters

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Saturday, July 14, 2012

White Fang

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11/22/63

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On November 22, 1963, three shots rang out in Dallas, President Kennedy died, and the world changed. What if you could change it back? Stephen King’s heart-stoppingly dramatic new novel is about a man who travels back in time to prevent the JFK assassination-a thousand page tour de force.

Following his massively successful novel Under the Dome, King sweeps readers back in time to another moment-a real life moment-when everything went wrong: the JFK assassination. And he introduces readers to a character who has the power to change the course of history.

Synopsis
Jake Epping is a thirty-five-year-old high school English teacher in Lisbon Falls, Maine, who makes extra money teaching adults in the GED program. He receives an essay from one of the students-a gruesome, harrowing first person story about the night 50 years ago when Harry Dunning’s father came home and killed his mother, his sister, and his brother with a hammer. Harry escaped with a smashed leg, as evidenced by his crooked walk.

Not much later, Jake’s friend Al, who runs the local diner, divulges a secret: his storeroom is a portal to 1958. He enlists Jake on an insane-and insanely possible-mission to try to prevent the Kennedy assassination. So begins Jake’s new life as George Amberson and his new world of Elvis and JFK, of big American cars and sock hops, of a troubled loner named Lee Harvey Oswald and a beautiful high school librarian named Sadie Dunhill, who becomes the love of Jake’s life-a life that transgresses all the normal rules of time.

A tribute to a simpler era and a devastating exercise in escalating suspense, 11/22/63 is Stephen King at his epic best.


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The Sacred Anointing

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The anointing of Gods Spirit is the most sacred treasure that one can steward. The anointing in manifestation is more than just a demonstration of power; it is a revealing of the very nature and character of God. With prophetic insight Brother Steven shares the many dynamics of the anointing. Loaded with practical applications as well as Brother Stevens'' dramatic testimony of once being homeless and living out of a cardboard box to being delivered from poverty and entrusted with an international ministry, you will be challenged and inspired to see the radical difference the anointing can make in your life.

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The Wreck Of The Titan

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Once seen as a prediction of the sinking of the Titanic, this novella was written 14 years before that ill-fated event of 1912?now, on the centenary anniversary of the Titanic's sinking, the striking similarities can be examined again in this new editionJohn Rowland, a disgraced former Royal Navy lieutenant, has taken employment as a lowly deck hand aboard the largest ship ever to have sailed, the Titan. One night in deep fog, the ship strikes a gigantic iceberg and sinks almost immediately. Written 14 years before the Titanic's sinking, this novella has been hailed in equal measures as a prophetic work and the work of pure coincidence. Certainly the similarities are striking: two unsinkable ships steam ahead in treacherous conditions, carrying privileged passengers, with insufficient lifeboats aboard.

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Addictions Counseling

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The book is widely read by professional counselors as well as those who do the work of counselors, such as ministers, teachers, and nurses.

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Fifty Shades Of Grey (Book One)

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CHAPTER ONE
I scowl with frustration at myself in the mirror. Damn my hair—it just won’t behave, and damn Katherine Kavanagh for being ill and subjecting me to this ordeal. I should be studying for my final exams, which are next week, yet here I am trying to brush my hair into submission. I must not sleep with it wet. I must not sleep with it wet. Reciting this mantra several times, I attempt, once more, to bring it under control with the brush. I roll my eyes in exasperation and gaze at the pale, brown-haired girl with blue eyes too big for her face staring back at me, and give up. My only option is to restrain my wayward hair in a ponytail and hope that I look semi-presentable.
Kate is my roommate, and she has chosen today of all days to succumb to the flu. Therefore, she cannot attend the interview she’d arranged to do, with some mega-industrialist tycoon I’ve never heard of, for the student newspaper. So I have been volunteered. I have final exams to cram for and one essay to finish, and I’m supposed to be working this afternoon, but no—today I have to drive 165 miles to downtown Seattle in order to meet the enigmatic CEO of Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc. As an exceptional entrepreneur and major benefactor of our university, his time is extraordinarily precious—much more precious than mine—but he has granted Kate an interview. A real coup, she tells me. Damn her extracurricular activities.
Kate is huddled on the couch in the living room.
“Ana, I’m sorry. It took me nine months to get this interview. It will take another six to reschedule, and we’ll both have graduated by then. As the editor, I can’t blow this off. Please,” Kate begs me in her rasping, sore throat voice. How does she do it? Even ill she looks gamine and gorgeous, strawberry blond hair in place and green eyes bright, although now red rimmed and runny. I ignore my pang of unwelcome sympathy.
“Of course I’ll go, Kate. You should get back to bed. Would you like some NyQuil or Tylenol?”
“NyQuil, please. Here are the questions and my digital recorder. Just press record here. Make notes, I’ll transcribe it all.”
“I know nothing about him,” I murmur, trying and failing to suppress my rising panic.
“The questions will see you through. Go. It’s a long drive. I don’t want you to be late.”
“Okay, I’m going. Get back to bed. I made you some soup to heat up later.” I stare at her fondly. Only for you, Kate, would I do this.
“I will. Good luck. And thanks, Ana—as usual, you’re my lifesaver.”
Gathering my backpack, I smile wryly at her, then head out the door to the car. I cannot believe I have let Kate talk me into this. But then Kate can talk anyone into anything. She’ll make an exceptional journalist. She’s articulate, strong, persuasive, argumentative, beautiful—and she’s my dearest, dearest friend.
The roads are clear as I set off from Vancouver, Washington, toward Interstate 5. It’s early, and I don’t have to be in Seattle until two this afternoon. Fortunately, Kate has lent me her sporty Mercedes CLK. I’m not sure Wanda, my old VW Beetle, would make the journey in time. Oh, the Merc is a fun drive, and the miles slip away as I hit the pedal to the metal.
My destination is the headquarters of Mr. Grey’s global enterprise. It’s a huge twenty-story office building, all curved glass and steel, an architect’s utilitarian fantasy, with GREY HOUSE written discreetly in steel over the glass front doors. It’s a quarter to two when I arrive, greatly relieved that I’m not late as I walk into the enormous—and frankly intimidating—glass, steel, and white sandstone lobby.
Behind the solid sandstone desk, a very attractive, groomed, blonde young woman smiles pleasantly at me. She’s wearing the sharpest charcoal suit jacket and white shirt I have ever seen. She looks immaculate.
“I’m here to see Mr. Grey. Anastasia Steele for Katherine Kavanagh.”
“Excuse me one moment, Miss Steele.” She arches her eyebrow as I stand self-consciously before her. I’m beginning to wish I’d borrowed one of Kate’s formal blazers rather than worn my navy-blue jacket. I have made an effort and worn my one and only skirt, my sensible brown knee-length boots, and a blue sweater. For me, this is smart. I tuck one of the escaped tendrils of my hair behind my ear as I pretend she doesn’t intimidate me.
“Miss Kavanagh is expected. Please sign in here, Miss Steele. You’ll want the last elevator on the right, press for the twentieth floor.” She smiles kindly at me, amused no doubt, as I sign in.
She hands me a security pass that has “visitor” very firmly stamped on the front. I can’t help my smirk. Surely it’s obvious that I’m just visiting. I don’t fit in here at all. Nothing changes. I inwardly sigh. Thanking her, I walk over to the bank of elevators and past the two security men who are both far more smartly dressed than I am in their well-cut black suits.
The elevator whisks me at terminal velocity to the twentieth floor. The doors slide open, and I’m in another large lobby—again all glass, steel, and white sandstone. I’m confronted by another desk of sandstone and another young blonde woman, this time dressed impeccably in black and white, who rises to greet me.
“Miss Steele, could you wait here, please?” She points to a seated area of white leather chairs.
Behind the leather chairs is a spacious glass-walled meeting room with an equally spacious dark wood table and at least twenty matching chairs around it. Beyond that, there is a floor-to-ceiling window with a view of the Seattle skyline that looks out through the city toward the Sound. It’s a stunning vista, and I’m momentarily paralyzed by the view. Wow.
I sit down, fish the questions from my backpack, and go through them, inwardly cursing Kate for not providing me with a brief biography. I know nothing about this man I’m about to interview. He could be ninety or he could be thirty. The uncertainty is galling, and my nerves resurface, making me fidget. I’ve never been comfortable with one-on-one interviews, preferring the anonymity of a group discussion where I can sit inconspicuously at the back of the room. To be honest, I prefer my own company, reading a classic British novel, curled up in a chair in the campus library. Not sitting twitching nervously in a colossal glass-and-stone edifice.
I roll my eyes at myself. Get a grip, Steele. Judging from the building, which is too clinical and modern, I guess Grey is in his forties: fit, tanned, and fair-haired to match the rest of the personnel.
Another elegant, flawlessly dressed blonde comes out of a large door to the right. What is it with all the immaculate blondes? It’s like Stepford here. Taking a deep breath, I stand up.
“Miss Steele?” the latest blonde asks.
“Yes,” I croak, and clear my throat. “Yes.” There, that sounded more confident.
“Mr. Grey will see you in a moment. May I take your jacket?”
“Oh, please.” I struggle out of the jacket.
“Have you been offered any refreshment?”
“Um—no.” Oh dear, is Blonde Number One in trouble?
Blonde Number Two frowns and eyes the young woman at the desk.
“Would you like tea, coffee, water?” she asks, turning her attention back to me.
“A glass of water. Thank you,” I murmur.
“Olivia, please fetch Miss Steele a glass of water.” Her voice is stern. Olivia scoots up and scurries to a door on the other side of the foyer.
“My apologies, Miss Steele, Olivia is our new intern. Please be seated. Mr. Grey will be another five minutes.”
Olivia returns with a glass of iced water.
“Here you go, Miss Steele.”
“Thank you.”
Blonde Number Two marches over to the large desk, her heels clicking and echoing on the sandstone floor. She sits down, and they both continue their work.
Perhaps Mr. Grey insists on all his employees being blonde. I’m wondering idly if that’s legal, when the office door opens and a tall, elegantly dressed, attractive African American man with short dreads exits. I have definitely worn the wrong clothes.
He turns and says through the door, “Golf this week, Grey?”
I don’t hear the reply. He turns, sees me, and smiles, his dark eyes crinkling at the corners. Olivia has jumped up and called the elevator. She seems to excel at jumping from her seat. She’s more nervous than me!
“Good afternoon, ladies,” he says as he departs through the sliding door.
“Mr. Grey will see you now, Miss Steele. Do go through,” Blonde Number Two says. I stand rather shakily, trying to suppress my nerves. Gathering up my backpack, I abandon my glass of water and make my way to the partially open door.
“You don’t need to knock—just go in.” She smiles kindly.
I push open the door and stumble through, tripping over my own feet and falling headfirst into the office.
Double crap—me and my two left feet! I am on my hands and knees in the doorway to Mr. Grey’s office, and gentle hands are around me, helping me to stand. I am so embarrassed, damn my clumsiness. I have to steel myself to glance up. Holy cow—he’s so young.
“Miss Kavanagh.” He extends a long-fingered hand to me once I’m upright. “I’m Christian Grey. Are you all right? Would you like to sit?”
So young—and attractive, very attractive. He’s tall, dressed in a fine gray suit, white shirt, and black tie with unruly dark copper-colored hair and intense, bright gray eyes that regard me shrewdly. It takes a moment for me to find my voice.  
“Um. Actually—” I mutter. If this guy is over thirty, then I’m a monkey’s uncle. In a daze, I place my hand in his and we shake. As our fingers touch, I feel an odd exhilarating shiver run through me. I withdraw my hand hastily, embarrassed. Must be static. I blink rapidly, my eyelids matching my heart rate.
“Miss Kavanagh is indisposed, so she sent me. I hope you don’t mind, Mr. Grey.”
“And you are?” His voice is warm, possibly amused, but it’s difficult to tell from his impassive expression. He looks mildly interested but, above all, polite.
“Anastasia Steele. I’m studying English literature with Kate, um . . . Katherine . . . um . . . Miss Kavanagh, at WSU Vancouver.”
“I see,” he says simply. I think I see the ghost of a smile in his expression, but I’m not sure.
“Would you like to sit?” He waves me toward an L-shaped white leather couch.
His office is way too big for just one man. In front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, there’s a modern dark wood desk that six people could comfortably eat around. It matches the coffee table by the couch. Everything else is white—ceiling, floors, and walls, except for the wall by the door, where a mosaic of small paintings hang, thirty-six of them arranged in a square. They are exquisite—a series of mundane, forgotten objects painted in such precise detail they look like photographs. Displayed together, they are breathtaking.
“A local artist. Trouton,” says Grey when he catches my gaze.
“They’re lovely. Raising the ordinary to extraordinary,” I murmur, distracted both by him and the paintings. He cocks his head to one side and regards me intently.
“I couldn’t agree more, Miss Steele,” he replies, his voice soft, and for some inexplicable reason I find myself blushing.
Apart from the paintings, the rest of the office is cold, clean, and clinical. I wonder if it reflects the personality of the Adonis who sinks gracefully into one of the white leather chairs opposite me. I shake my head, disturbed at the direction of my thoughts, and retrieve Kate’s questions from my backpack. Next, I set up the digital recorder and am all fingers and thumbs, dropping it twice on the coffee table in front of me. Mr. Grey says nothing, waiting patiently—I hope—as I become increasingly embarrassed and flustered. When I pluck up the courage to look at him, he’s watching me, one hand relaxed in his lap and the other cupping his chin and trailing his long index finger across his lips. I think he’s trying to suppress a smile.
“S-sorry,” I stutter. “I’m not used to this.”
“Take all the time you need, Miss Steele,” he says.
“Do you mind if I record your answers?”
“After you’ve taken so much trouble to set up the recorder, you ask me now?”
I flush. He’s teasing me? I hope. I blink at him, unsure what to say, and I think he takes pity on me because he relents. “No, I don’t mind.”
“Did Kate, I mean, Miss Kavanagh, explain what the interview was for?”
“Yes. To appear in the graduation issue of the student newspaper as I shall be conferring the degrees at this year’s graduation ceremony.”
Oh! This is news to me, and I’m temporarily preoccupied by the thought that someone not much older than me—okay, maybe six years or so, and okay, mega-successful, but still—is going to present me with my degree. I frown, dragging my wayward attention back to the task at hand.
“Good.” I swallow nervously. “I have some questions, Mr. Grey.” I smooth a stray lock of hair behind my ear.
“I thought you might,” he says, deadpan. He’s laughing at me. My cheeks heat at the realization, and I sit up and square my shoulders in an attempt to look taller and more intimidating. Pressing the start button on the recorder, I try to look professional.
“You’re very young to have amassed such an empire. To what do you owe your success?” I glance up at him. His smile is rueful, but he looks vaguely disappointed.
“Business is all about people, Miss Steele, and I’m very good at judging people. I know how they tick, what makes them flourish, what doesn’t, what inspires them, and how to incentivize them. I employ an exceptional team, and I reward them well.” He pauses and fixes me with his gray stare. “My belief is to achieve success in any scheme one has to make oneself master of that scheme, know it inside and out, know every detail. I work hard, very hard to do that. I make decisions based on logic and facts. I have a natural gut instinct that can spot and nurture a good solid idea and good people. The bottom line is it’s always down to good people.”
“Maybe you’re just lucky.” This isn’t on Kate’s list—but he’s so arrogant. His eyes flare momentarily in surprise.
“I don’t subscribe to luck or chance, Miss Steele. The harder I work the more luck I seem to have. It really is all about having the right people on your team and directing their energies accordingly. I think it was Harvey Firestone who said, ‘The growth and development of people is the highest calling of leadership.’ ”
“You sound like a control freak.” The words are out of my mouth before I can stop them.
“Oh, I exercise control in all things, Miss Steele,” he says without a trace of humor in his smile. I look at him, and he holds my gaze steadily, impassive. My heartbeat quickens, and my face flushes again.
Why does he have such an unnerving effect on me? His overwhelming good looks maybe? The way his eyes blaze at me? The way he strokes his index finger against his lower lip? I wish he’d stop doing that.
“Besides, immense power is acquired by assuring yourself in your secret reveries that you were born to control things,” he continues, his voice soft.
“Do you feel that you have immense power?” Control freak.
“I employ over forty thousand people, Miss Steele. That gives me a certain sense of responsibility—power, if you will. If I were to decide I was no longer interested in the telecommunications business and sell, twenty thousand people would struggle to make their mortgage payments after a month or so.”
My mouth drops open. I am staggered by his lack of humility.
“Don’t you have a board to answer to?” I ask, disgusted.
“I own my company. I don’t have to answer to a board.” He raises an eyebrow at me. Of course, I would know this if I had done some research. But holy crap, he’s arrogant. I change tack.
“And do you have any interests outside your work?”
“I have varied interests, Miss Steele.” A ghost of a smile touches his lips. “Very varied.” And for some reason, I’m confounded and heated by his steady gaze. His eyes are alight with some wicked thought.
“But if you work so hard, what do you do to chill out?”
“Chill out?” He smiles, revealing perfect white teeth. I stop breathing. He really is beautiful. No one should be this good-looking.
“Well, to ‘chill out,’ as you put it—I sail, I fly, I indulge in various physical pursuits.” He shifts in his chair. “I’m a very wealthy man, Miss Steele, and I have expensive and absorbing hobbies.”
I glance quickly at Kate’s questions, wanting to get off this subject.
“You invest in manufacturing. Why, specifically?” I ask. Why does he make me so uncomfortable?
“I like to build things. I like to know how things work: what makes things tick, how to construct and deconstruct. And I have a love of ships. What can I say?”
“That sounds like your heart talking rather than logic and facts.”
His mouth quirks up, and he stares appraisingly at me.
“Possibly. Though there are people who’d say I don’t have a heart.”
“Why would they say that?”
“Because they know me well.” His lip curls in a wry smile.
“Would your friends say you’re easy to get to know?” And I regret the question as soon as I say it. It’s not on Kate’s list.
“I’m a very private person, Miss Steele. I go a long way to protect my privacy. I don’t often give interviews . . .”
“Why did you agree to do this one?”
“Because I’m a benefactor of the university, and for all intents and purposes, I couldn’t get Miss Kavanagh off my back. She badgered and badgered my PR people, and I admire that kind of tenacity.”
I know how tenacious Kate can be. That’s why I’m sitting here squirming uncomfortably under his penetrating gaze, when I should be studying for my exams.
“You also invest in farming technologies. Why are you interested in that area?”
“We can’t eat money, Miss Steele, and there are too many people on this planet who don’t have enough to eat.”
“That sounds very philanthropic. Is it something you feel passionately about? Feeding the world’s poor?”
He shrugs noncommittally.
“It’s shrewd business,” he murmurs, though I think he’s being disingenuous. It doesn’t make sense—feeding the world’s poor? I can’t see the financial benefit of this, only the virtue of the ideal. I glance at the next question, confused by his attitude.
“Do you have a philosophy? If so, what is it?”
“I don’t have a philosophy as such. Maybe a guiding principle—Carnegie’s: ‘A man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled.’ I’m very singular, driven. I like control—of myself and those around me.”
“So you want to possess things?” You are a control freak.
“I want to deserve to possess them, but yes, bottom line, I do.”
“You sound like the ultimate consumer.”
“I am.” He smiles, but the smile doesn’t touch his eyes. Again, this is at odds with someone who wants to feed the world, so I can’t help thinking that we’re talking about something else, but I’m mystified as to what it is. I swallow hard. The temperature in the room is rising, or maybe it’s just me. I just want this interview to be over. Surely Kate has enough material now. I glance at the next question.
“You were adopted. How much do you think that’s shaped the way you are?” Oh, this is personal. I stare at him, hoping he’s not offended. His brow furrows.
“I have no way of knowing.”
My interest is piqued. “How old were you when you were adopted?”
“That’s a matter of public record, Miss Steele.” His tone is stern. Crap. Yes, of course—if I’d known I was doing this interview, I would have done some research. Flustered, I move on quickly.
“You’ve had to sacrifice family life for your work.”
“That’s not a question.” He’s terse.
“Sorry.” I squirm; he’s made me feel like an errant child. I try again. “Have you had to sacrifice family life for your work?”
“I have a family. I have a brother and a sister and two loving parents. I’m not interested in extending my family beyond that.”
“Are you gay, Mr. Grey?”
He inhales sharply, and I cringe, mortified. Crap. Why didn’t I employ some kind of filter before I read this straight out? How can I tell him I’m just reading the questions? Damn Kate and her curiosity!
“No, Anastasia, I’m not.” He raises his eyebrows, a cool gleam in his eyes. He does not look pleased.
“I apologize. It’s, um . . . written here.” It’s the first time he’s said my name. My heartbeat has accelerated, and my cheeks are heating up again. Nervously, I tuck my loosened hair behind my ear.
He cocks his head to one side.
“These aren’t your own questions?”
The blood drains from my head.
“Er . . . no. Kate—Miss Kavanagh—she compiled the questions.”
“Are you colleagues on the student paper?” Oh no. I have nothing to do with the student paper. It’s her extracurricular activity, not mine. My face is aflame.
“No. She’s my roommate.”
He rubs his chin in quiet deliberation, his gray eyes appraising me.
“Did you volunteer to do this interview?” he asks, his voice deadly quiet.
Hang on, who’s supposed to be interviewing whom? His eyes burn into me, and I’m compelled to answer with the truth.
“I was drafted. She’s not well.” My voice is weak and apologetic.
“That explains a great deal.”
There’s a knock at the door, and Blonde Number Two enters.
“Mr. Grey, forgive me for interrupting, but your next meeting is in two minutes.”
“We’re not finished here, Andrea. Please cancel my next meeting.”
Andrea hesitates, gaping at him. She appears lost. He turns his
head slowly to face her and raises his eyebrows. She flushes bright
pink. Oh, good. It’s not just me.
“Very well, Mr. Grey,” she mutters, then exits. He frowns, and turns his attention back to me.
“Where were we, Miss Steele?”
Oh, we’re back to “Miss Steele” now.
“Please, don’t let me keep you from anything.”
“I want to know about you. I think that’s only fair.” His eyes are alight with curiosity. Double crap. Where’s he going with this? He places his elbows on the arms of the chair and steeples his fingers in front of his mouth. His mouth is very . . . distracting. I swallow.
“There’s not much to know.”
“What are your plans after you graduate?”
I shrug, thrown by his interest. Move to Seattle with Kate, find a job. I haven’t really thought beyond my finals.
“I haven’t made any plans, Mr. Grey. I just need to get through my final exams.” Which I should be studying for right now, rather than sitting in your palatial, swanky, sterile office, feeling uncomfortable under your penetrating gaze.
“We run an excellent internship program here,” he says quietly. I raise my eyebrows in surprise. Is he offering me a job?
“Oh. I’ll bear that in mind,” I murmur, confounded. “Though I’m not sure I’d fit in here.” Oh no. I’m musing out loud again.
“Why do you say that?” He tilts his head to one side, intrigued, a hint of a smile playing on his lips.
“It’s obvious, isn’t it?” I’m uncoordinated, scruffy, and I’m not blonde.
“Not to me.” His gaze is intense, all humor gone, and strange muscles deep in my belly clench suddenly. I tear my eyes away from his scrutiny and stare blindly down at my knotted fingers. What’s going on? I have to go—now. I lean forward to retrieve the recorder.
“Would you like me to show you around?” he asks.
“I’m sure you’re far too busy, Mr. Grey, and I do have a long drive.”
“You’re driving back to Vancouver?” He sounds surprised, anxious even. He glances out of the window. It’s begun to rain. “Well, you’d better drive carefully.” His tone is stern, authoritative. Why should he care? “Did you get everything you need?” he adds.
“Yes, sir,” I reply, packing the recorder into my backpack. His eyes narrow, speculatively.
“Thank you for the interview, Mr. Grey.”
“The pleasure’s been all mine,” he says, polite as ever.
As I rise, he stands and holds out his hand.
“Until we meet again, Miss Steele.” And it sounds like a challenge, or a threat, I’m not sure which. I frown. When will we ever meet again? I shake his hand once more, astounded that that odd current between us is still there. It must be my nerves.
“Mr. Grey.” I nod at him. Moving with lithe athletic grace to the door, he opens it wide.
“Just ensuring you make it through the door, Miss Steele.” He gives me a small smile. Obviously, he’s referring to my earlier less-than-elegant entry into his office. I blush.
“That’s very considerate, Mr. Grey,” I snap, and his smile widens. I’m glad you find me entertaining, I glower inwardly, walking into the foyer. I’m surprised when he follows me out. Andrea and Olivia both look up, equally surprised.
“Did you have a coat?” Grey asks.
“A jacket.”
Olivia leaps up and retrieves my jacket, which Grey takes from her before she can hand it to me. He holds it up and, feeling ridiculously self-conscious, I shrug it on. Grey places his hands for a moment on my shoulders. I gasp at the contact. If he notices my reaction, he gives nothing away. His long index finger presses the button summoning the elevator, and we stand waiting—awkwardly on my part, coolly self-possessed on his. The doors open, and I hurry in, desperate to escape. I really need to get out of here. When I turn to look at him, he’s gazing at me and leaning against the doorway beside the elevator with one hand on the wall. He really is very, very good-looking. It’s unnerving.
“Anastasia,” he says as a farewell.
“Christian,” I reply. And mercifully, the doors close.

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Friday, July 13, 2012

The Lost Boy: A Foster Child's Search for the Love of a Family

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The Devil in Pew Number Seven

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Rebecca never felt safe as a child. In 1969, her father, Robert Nichols, moved to Sellerstown, North Carolina, to serve as a pastor. There he found a small community eager to welcome him-with one exception. Glaring at him from pew number seven was a man obsessed with controlling the church. Determined to get rid of anyone who stood in his way, he unleashed a plan of terror that was more devastating and violent than the Nichols family could have ever imagined. Refusing… (more)

Rebecca never felt safe as a child. In 1969, her father, Robert Nichols, moved to Sellerstown, North Carolina, to serve as a pastor. There he found a small community eager to welcome him-with one exception. Glaring at him from pew number seven was a man obsessed with controlling the church. Determined to get rid of anyone who stood in his way, he unleashed a plan of terror that was more devastating and violent than the Nichols family could have ever imagined. Refusing to be driven away by acts of intimidation, Rebecca's father stood his ground until one night when an armed man walked into the family's kitchen . . . and Rebecca's life was shattered. If anyone had a reason to harbor hatred and seek personal revenge, it would be Rebecca. Yet The Devil in Pew Number Seven tells a different story. It is the amazing true saga of relentless persecution, one family's faith and courage in the face of it, and a daughter whose parents taught her the power of forgiveness.

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Built from Scratch

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Chapter One Two Regular Guys
"We Can Finish Each Other's Sentences"

My parents were Russian immigrants who came to America with nomoney. So courageous, these people. I think often about their lives,how in desperation, they picked up and left the only life they and generationsbefore them had ever known. They had nothing. They camewith nothing. They arrived in America looking forward to freedomand safety. They didn't speak the language. They were special peoplefor whom courage was second nature.

    I grew up in a fourth floor tenement at the corner of BelmontAvenue and Rose Street in Newark, New Jersey. It was freezing in thewinter and hot as hell in the summer. I tell the joke that it was so badthat they tore it down to build a slum.

    It was the only home I knew, of course, and I loved it. We were surroundedby other kids in this tenement, and I loved my life, me andmy friends hanging from the fire escapes, using our imaginations toentertain ourselves. It was so much fun; just ourselves and our minds.

    My mother was the matriarch and peacemaker of the family. Shewas such a positive human being that it was difficult to depress herspirit. She could find the bright side of any situation, even death.Mother was a great optimist. She often used the Jewish word b'sheirt,which means "it is destined to be." And to her, everything that wasdestined to be was always very positive. In other words, even if somebodydied, she would find a good reason—"they didn't suffer" or"the family didn't suffer." She could make anything into a positive.

    My mom taught me most of the beliefs I possess today, especiallythat you have only so much physical and mental energy. Don't spendtime replaying the past; it only keeps you from focusing on the future.Don't spend time on things in which you can't make a difference. Shealso taught me that the way you handle and deal with life's setbackscreates the basis for what you'll accomplish in the future.

    I often think of Willy Loman, the central character in ArthurMiller's great play Death of a Salesman. Willy's glory days as a starsalesman were clearly behind him. If he wanted to keep his job heneeded to change. Instead, he blamed everyone but himself for hisfailures. My mom was just the opposite, always looking on the brightside.

    A very, very bright woman, my mother had enough wisdom toqualify her to teach at our best business schools. She was bedriddenin her mid-forties, crippled with rheumatoid arthritis. She couldn'twalk. When my sister, Bea, was eight years old, Mother's doctor toldher that the only hope she had of ever walking again would be if shehad another baby. Believe it or not, I was conceived for medicalreasons! Even better, after giving birth to me—on Mother's Day, noless—she was able to walk again. Her hands and feet were stillhopelessly gnarled, but she was able to walk.

    To her, I was a blessing. She loved me so because I literally savedher life. Although in unrelenting pain, she functioned for some thirtyyears after my birth and had an immense influence on my life.

    My father was a cabinetmaker. He was strong as an ox, a greatcraftsman but a terrible businessman. He worked day and night,seven days a week, fifteen hours a day, and still couldn't make endsmeet for his wife and four children. Without the contributions of mytwo grown brothers, Irving and Seymour, the family would neverhave survived.

    As poor as we were, my mother used to take ice cream moneyaway from my brothers and sister and me—often against our will—andgive it to charities. Her sincere belief was that "the more you give,the more you get." How right she was. * * *

    We lived in a predominantly black neighborhood, which made mea target if for no other reason than I stood out in any crowd. Blackgang kids used to challenge me to fights every day after school andwhip me badly, but, somewhat fearless, somewhat stupid, I alwayscame back for more. Finally, the leader of one gang was so impressedwith my ability to take what he was dishing out that he wanted me aspart of the gang. At 11 years old, I not only ran with this gang ofthirty black kids but I became its second in command.

    Then when I was about 12 1/2, we moved away from that neighborhood,which was getting too rough for our family. * * *

    My family was always in tough shape financially, so I startedworking from the age of 13. My first job was as a soda jerk afterschool. During summer vacations in high school, I earned money forcollege as a busboy in the Catskill Mountains. You could accumulatea significant (in those days) amount of money if you were frugal, becausethe jobs included room and board and the tips were all yours.

    From an early age I had a propensity for medicine—especiallypsychiatry. I was particularly interested in studying the mind. I spenthours reading the works of Freud and Jung and became determinedat the age of 17 that I would become a psychiatrist.

    During this time, I learned the art of hypnosis. When I was awaiter at Kutsher's Country Club, I became proficient enough that Iwas able to perform on stage. I would put somebody into a hypnoticstate, take them back in years, but I never made a fool out of anybody.I helped people with memory problems find something they lost. Infact, I did one of the original stop-smoking routines. It was a very excitingperiod in my life; I hypnotized as many as ten people at a time.It was here, as I got into people's minds, that I began to understandhow some folks become obstacles for others.

    I recognized then that my calling was in medicine, and specificallypsychiatry. I registered for premed studies at Rutgers College inNewark, which allowed me to save money by living at home.

    After my second year, I sought a med school scholarship. One daythe dean, with whom I had become friendly, called me. He hadarranged a scholarship for me to attend Harvard Medical School. Iwas very excited.

    Then he said to me, "I will give you the address where you haveto send a $10,000 check," and I just looked at him in disbelief. He explainedthat there was a quota on how many Jews Harvard wouldwillingly accept into medical school. The $10,000 was some kind ofkickback.

    I never personally spoke to anyone from Harvard, but I was toldthere was an unwritten quota system regarding how many Jewish studentscould be accepted into various graduate schools—medical included.But if my family could come up with a $10,000 contribution,I could probably circumvent the quota. Well, my entire family—parents,aunts, uncles, and cousins—had never seen that kind of money,let alone possessed it, so my dream was quashed like a tenpenny nailbeing hit by a sledgehammer.

    In total frustration, I quit school the next day, packed my suitcases,and hitchhiked down to Florida, where I stayed for a year. I wasso despondent because I couldn't be a doctor.

    After I'd had a year of real-life learning experiences and totalindependence, my mother prevailed on me to finish my education. Allgood Jewish mothers feel their children need a college degree, so Iwent home. I went back to Rutgers and enrolled in pharmacy school,which was far from my heart's first choice. * * *

    I was very young during World War II, but it—and the news of theHolocaust in particular—had a sobering effect on me. It dawned onme that folks like myself were massacred for no other reason thanbeing born Jewish. If not for the courage of my parents giving upeverything they knew to come to this wonderful land, I might haveperished in Hitler's death camps. So at an early age, survival of theJewish race and religion became very important to me.

    We were brought up in an Orthodox religious home. Going tosynagogue—and living our lives according to the scriptures—werevery important and had a special meaning to my parents and,through their eyes, to me. They had a strong belief in God, and theyinstilled that in me.

    I was very religious myself, although I had a problem: I didn't understandHebrew. It was difficult for me to pray to God in a languagethat I didn't understand. I did the chants, and I did the words. But Ididn't understand it, and, as an adult, I kind of backed off on Orthodoxy.But I never backed off on being a Jew.

    I understand the frustration that blacks faced in America yearsago. Jews suffered the same obstacles. Large corporations, banks, andindustries were devoid of Jews in positions of authority. We couldn'tbelong to exclusive clubs or high society. So we had to work harderand smarter to succeed. There is great jealousy of the accomplishmentsof Jews in America, but we fought for our share.

    I believe that the value of our religion is critical. I think it hastaught me values. And what I have always understood is that thehuman being is his own temple, that if you feel good about yourselfand share your good fortune with others who are not so fortunatethat you are doing the work of God. Beginning with my mother's encouragement,I have tried to conduct myself in this manner. * * *

    When I finished pharmacy school in 1954, I interned for a year.Before the year was up, the father of a friend of mine, Larry Wortzel,died, and Larry offered me a 50 percent sweat equity share of hisfather's Millburn, New Jersey, pharmacy business, Central DiscountDrug. I accepted, but it was a mistake.

    This was not a great partnership and was full of stress for both ofus. A frustrated would-be doctor does not make for a good pharmacist.Lots of heated arguments ensued.

    One Saturday night—we were open until nine P.M.—after I hadyet another conflict with Larry that day, I was alone in the store andeating dinner at the back counter between customers. That's whenfate—a little guy with a big cigar in his mouth—walked into the storeand changed my life.

    "Hey, kid, come here, get me a cigar," he said.

    This fellow may have been two years older than I was, maybethree years at the most.

    "What did you say?" I asked.

    "I said, kid, get me a cigar."

    So I walked up to him, and said, "Pick a window."

    This big cigar dangling in his mouth, he looked at me, confused."What do you mean, pick a window?"

    "Pick a window, because you are going through one of them. Iwant you to have a choice in which one." And believe me, he knew Iwasn't kidding.

    He put up his hands in a defensive way, as if to suggest he meantno offense. But I was in a foul, foul mood, and I was prepared. Callingme "kid" was the last straw.

    "Wait a second," he said. "You must have had an argument withyour partner."

    "How did you guess?" I asked, disarmed by his intuition.

    "Hey, I've been in here before," he said. "I've seen you aroundyour partner."

    He introduced himself as Danny Kessler and said he was thechairman of a company called United Shirt Shops.

    "What are you doing in this crummy store?" he asked me. "Whydon't you get the hell out of here? Go into a business that is moresuited to your talents."

    "And what business would that be?"

    "Discount stores. Concession departments. I have the men'sclothing concession in a whole bunch of stores and we are making aton of money. There are lots of great stores doing this."

    "Where are they?"

    "There is one not far from here in Paramus," he said, "Why don'tyou come visit me there tomorrow?"

    So the next day, I did.

    I had never been in a discount store in my life, and it was mind-boggling.I had never seen that many people in my whole life gothrough a store, and every department, while part of the same storein the customer's eyes, was run by a different concessionaire. Kesslertook me over and introduced me to Henry Flink, who leased and ranthe cosmetics department. Health and beauty aids were just flying offhis shelves.

    "How does a person get in this business?" I asked Kessler.

    "You want to get in, I will get you in," he said.

    I had no money to buy into a new venture; I was broke. Larry hadno money, either; he had the store, that's all. But Kessler was true tohis word and found a place for me to start, Spears Fifth Avenue, nearthe Empire State Building.

    We hocked the drugstore to get into this new business. Wortzeldidn't want to do it; I did. Another argument. But our resources wereso slim, we had to do it together. I finally suggested a compromise. Isaid, "You stay with the drugstore, I'll run this business, and we'll besuccessful at it." Reluctantly, he went along.

    To get me up and running, Flink agreed to sell me merchandiseon credit, basically setting me up to be his own competitor. It was thebeginning of a personal relationship that continues to this day.

    Unfortunately, Spears was on its way to bankruptcy and nearlydragged us under with it. Plus I had other troubles. Wortzel and Iowed Flink and others a ton of money.

    Meanwhile, another friend of mine, Bob Silverman, told me aboutTwo Guys. "They need you desperately," he said. "They are the best,but they are running the worst cosmetics business in the world.Maybe you can get a concession in their stores."

    So I went to the Two Guys store in Totowa, New Jersey, andwalked it maybe ten times over a two-week period. I was astounded.Great Eastern Mills, another well-known East Coast discount chainof that era, was good. But Two Guys was better. I asked one of theemployees, "Who runs this place?"

    "That guy right there," he said, pointing. "Herb Hubschman." Bya twist of fate, Hubschman was in the same store that I was visiting.

    "Mr. Hubschman?" I said, interrupting him.

    "Yeah?"

    "This is the greatest store I've ever seen," I said, exaggerating tokeep his interest. "This is unbelievable."

    Flattered, he personally walked me from department to department,telling me, "I buy this" and "I do this" and "I bought this forthis" and "I bought this whole company out." When he finished, heturned back to me and said, "Well, what do you have to say aboutthat?"

    And I said, "For the smartest guy in the world, you are the biggestschmuck I ever met in my life."

    He looked at me, stunned, a hurt expression in his eyes. "What areyou talking about?"

    "Look at how brilliant and innovative you are," I said. "You havefood in the store, you have appliances, you have this and you havethat. But your cosmetics department is the worst I have ever seen. It'sdisgraceful! How can you let this happen?"

    "Well," he said sheepishly, "my brother runs it."

    "Now I know what's wrong. Your brother runs it.

    "Herb," I continued, "from now on, I will run this part of yourbusiness. What your brother is doing in sales now I will pay as rentand I'll make a profit over that."

    "You can't possibly make that deal," he said.

    What he said he believed and what he wanted to believe were twodifferent things. I wanted that cosmetics department and he wantedme—enough for him to buy the concession departments I had atSpears and another store, Webster's, for all of the debt that I owed, includingpaying off Henry Flink and Larry Wortzel. I separated myselffrom Larry—we weren't talking at all at that point, anyway. I left himwith the drugstore, and I went with Two Guys.

    The owners of Two Guys, which was one of the foremost discountersin those days, bought our inventory and paid our debts. Itook over the cosmetics department and in a short time did what Isaid I would do. They also gave me the sporting goods department,followed by major appliances. By the time I was 28, I was overseeingapproximately $1 billion worth of business, all of the hard goods ofthe Two Guys companies.

    I ascended the ladder of success at Two Guys by learning how importantthe folks are with whom you surround yourself. I loved teachingpeople the business. Why have I been successful my whole life?Because I've always surrounded myself with people who are betterthan I am. That's one of the lessons that guided Arthur Blank and mewhen we started The Home Depot and one every businessperson inAmerica needs to learn. * * *

    I later became friendly with Wal-Mart's founder, Sam Walton, andremain close today with the company's current chairman of the board,David Glass. We have a lot of common experiences and interests.

    One day, Glass and I were walking through one of his superstoresin Georgia. I said, "You think this superstore of yours is a great invention,right?"

    "Oh, yes," he said proudly, having played a part in Wal-Mart'sbirth.

    "Well, we did this at Two Guys back in the early fifties," I said."We had a supermarket. We had linen and major appliances. We hada little restaurant. We had all of the things that you have here now. Wedidn't have the systems that you have. We didn't have the help thatyou have. Today, we have computers to help run these businesses.Back in those days, it was run by grunts, who did a lot of real grunting.It was a tough business. Everything in your stores is a carboncopy, it's as though the world came around."

    David then remembered! He had been in Two Guys stores.

    "Some of it worked," I said, "some of it didn't work."

    Seton Hall University in New Jersey did a study in the late 1960sand discovered that 70 percent of the appliances that were bought onthe East Coast were bought in Two Guys stores. Something like 60percent of lawn furniture was bought at Two Guys.

    But in the end, they blew it.

    Herb Hubschman, the founder of Two Guys, died. And when hisbrother subsequently exited the business, it was taken over by outsiderswho destroyed it by overexpanding.

    One of their last smart decisions was acquiring Vornado, whichwas probably the largest fan company in the world at the time. TwoGuys was the major buyer of their fans. When they ran into badtimes, our private company, Two Guys, bought their public company,Vornado, and created a new public company under the Vornadoname. I subsequently went out selling their product to other people.

    Another acquisition, Food Giant, a supermarket company in Californiathat built emporiums and discount stores, was the arrogantmove that destroyed Two Guys. We overexpanded and paid a heavypenalty for it. Guys like me were drowning in the mess of it all. Therising waves of red ink made me sick.

    As a conglomerate, Two Guys was a disaster. People in the companyfocused on their own careers, not the customers. As a result, thecustomers disappeared and careers sank. The history of retailing isfilled with once-great companies that disappeared off the face of theearth, Two Guys included. I carried the lesson I learned about the importanceof customers throughout the rest of my career.

    I left Two Guys in 1968 because I couldn't deal with it anymore.

    I'd had it with cold weather, anyway. One freezing, miserable day,there was ice on the ground, snow and sleet were falling, it was disgusting.My car window iced up while I was driving. I pulled over, gotout of the car, and as I scraped the ice, some of it went down mysleeve. Just then, a car whizzed by and sent a wave of ice over my headand down my back. "That's it," I shouted to everybody and nobody."I am out of here! Next chance I get, I am gone."

    A week later I got a call to go to California. * * *

    In June of 1968 I joined a manufacturing company called Odell,Inc., as president and chief operating officer. Odell was a$50-million-a-year manufacturer of consumer products such as Esquireshoe polish, Tintex, and Tidy Bowl.

    I stayed at Odell for two years, enduring a hostile-takeover battlewith Papercraft. In June 1970, I read the handwriting on the wall andleft Odell for Daylin Corporation as a vice president in its NorthBergen, New Jersey, offices. My initial responsibilities included supervisingthe 34-store Millers/Gulf Mart Discount Stores operation,working with Dave Finkle, chairman of the executive committee, tocoordinate the corporate-wide merchandising of our hard-goodslines, and supervising drug and toiletries merchandising in the chainof Great Eastern Discount Stores—a direct competitor of Two Guys.

    I never had any real money to speak of in those days, despite holdinglofty titles in some of America's best retail companies. And by1972, I had an ex-wife, Ruth, two kids in college, Fred and Suzanne,and a new wife, Billi, and another child, Michael Morris. No matterwhat I was paid, it wasn't enough. Real money is in equity, and that Ididn't have.

    But when I was handed the reigns to another Daylin chain, HandyDan Home Improvement Centers, it forever changed the course ofmy life. * * *

I grew up in the borough of Queens in New York City. We livedin Sunnyside until I was 11, then the family moved to Flushing.

    People assume that because we cofounded the world's largesthome improvement chain, we must be real whizzes around the house.But I never had the opportunity to be handy because I was raised inan apartment. I was always out in the street, playing ball and runningaround with my friends. There was nothing made of wood aroundour house—everything was cement, bricks, and block. I didn't live ina single-family home until I was 31 years old.

    My dad was a very kind person. You couldn't help but notice howeverybody liked being with Max Blank. He was just an easy person tobe around. And while he worked hard, he was always available to playball or do whatever I asked.

    One of the things I have always remembered about Father was hisnatural affinity for speaking Spanish. When I took Spanish in highschool, he would help me with my homework after dinner. He wouldsit on the corner of my bed, shake his head, and say, "How come youdon't get this?" It came so easily to him and so hard to me. I was agood student when it came to science and math, but I couldn't getSpanish. "Why is this hard for you?" he would ask. "What is the matterhere?" (In 1998, when we opened our first store in Chile, I was remindedagain of how useful it would have been to learn Spanish.)

    I have such fond memories of my father. As a pharmacist, he wasalways helping people. Back then, a pharmacist was kind of a secondarydoctor. Medical doctors weren't as accessible or as abundantas they are now, so my father spent a lot of time talking to peopleabout their health, giving them advice. It's somewhat ironic that mypartner, Bernie, has a grounding and experience as a pharmacist.

    When my father worked for his brother, it was only a couple ofblocks from where we lived. Mother would make his lunch or dinnerand I would take it to him at the drugstore. I would sit there andwatch while he mixed prescriptions—the way pharmacists really usedto do it—and he talked to me between customers and sneaking a biteof food.

    I remember how hard he worked when he started his own business,Sherry Pharmaceutical, a mail-order pharmaceutical companyselling direct to hospitals, doctors, and nursing homes across thecountry. At night he would come home and be on the phone forhours doing deals.

    One of the great losses in my life happened when my father died in1957 of a heart attack. He was just 44 and I was 15. My uncle also diedof a heart attack sometime later. My brother, Michael, who is two anda half years older than I am, was always convinced that he would neverlive past 44. Really. He just "knew" that he was going to die becauseDad died so young. Today, Michael is 60 and still in good health.

    I never had that fear. I have always pushed myself hard, but it wasnever because I thought I wouldn't live a long life. I do, however,think one of the reasons I have had an extreme emphasis on healthand exercise in my life is my father's death. In the mid-1970s, a doctorat the Scripps Clinic in San Diego warned me against smoking."You have one big strike against you," he said. "Your father's heartcondition."

    That had a big effect on me. On the plane ride home, I read KennethCooper's first book, Aerobics, all about running and staying inshape. When I got home, I ran a mile. Cooper had a test in which yourphysical fitness starting point was running as far as you could intwelve minutes. I was able to run a mile in twelve minutes, whichtoday is ridiculously slow. Then, it was a major accomplishment. Thenext day, I did it again. Pretty soon I was running a mile or two everymorning. People would see me out running—this was before it becamea national obsession—and they would say, "What were youdoing? What is that about?" It was such a strange thing to do then.

    So I think my father's death affected me in a lot of ways. Maybe atsome level, deep down inside, I have always had a sense of urgencyabout getting things done and accomplishing things and moving onwith things, and maybe some of that has come from him. But I neverconsciously had a fear of dying at an unusually young age. In fact, Iam probably in better condition and fitter than most men half my age.

    One of the great losses that I feel I have is that I never really knewmy father as an adult. There have been times when I had been understress and I took great comfort in recalling childhood conversationswith my father and imagining how we would discuss the current issuesin my life.

    When you see a person through your eyes at age 15, and that isthe end of the relationship, you don't really know him as an adultwould know him. And as I have gone through the growth in life, myfirst marriage to Diana, our three children, Kenny, Dena, andDanielle, all the business situations, building The Home Depot in thelast twenty years, my second marriage to Stephanie, and our son,Joshua, I wish my father could have been there through it all. * * *

    My mother, Molly, was 37, a young woman, when my father died.How much his death affected her, nobody will ever really know forsure, but I think it was probably greater than any of us ever suspected.Not only because she had to go into his business and run it with noexperience, but because it was really a small business then that shebuilt from the ground up. If she had tried to sell it right after myfather died, it wouldn't have been worth very much.

    She was concerned because she had to put two sons through college,both in expensive private schools. The issue of being able to supportus was paramount for her.

    My father did not have a lot of life insurance. The life insurancethat he had was in dispute because he had taken it out only a year orso prior to his heart attack. There were questions of whether or not hehad made a full disclosure about his health.

    So Mother became the breadwinner, trying to, as she put it, "be amother and a father to two sons." Of course there is no way that amother can be a father to boys, anyway.

    The pressure our situation exerted upon her was enormous, andit took a lot out of her over the years. My father's death affected her,not only because she lost her husband, but because it put much morestress on her and made her life a lot more difficult in many, manyways. It changed my relationship with my mother, who is a very remarkablewoman. She is a very bright lady, a principled person, aperfectionist, with strong social-liberal leanings.

    My mother, who really had no business experience, went into thebusiness and ran it as best she could. And she did a very good job. * * *

    I have always been athletically inclined. Today I run marathons;back in high school I was a baseball and football player, as well as runningtrack.

    Being competitive has always been at the core of my nature, althoughit didn't kick in with regard to academics until I got to college.

    In high school, sports were my consuming passion. I did okay inschool in terms of academics, but mention sports and my attentionwas truly riveted. In baseball, I started off as a centerfielder, but Ieventually threw my arm out and couldn't make any long throws. SoI became a catcher, a position that suited me because I was in themiddle of almost every play.

    I apparently got my athleticism from my father. He went toColumbia University, where he set then—New York City records forboth the mile and the 100-yard dash, an unlikely feat today becauseathletes tend to specialize in distance or sprint races.

    When I started at Babson College, a small business school justoutside of Boston, I took school seriously for the first time. Andthere's nothing like applying yourself: I was elected vice-president ofmy junior class, president of the senior class—I did everything inschool that you could possibly do, plus, I was a straight-A student andmade the dean's list.

    One of the ways I paid for my college education was running myown landscaping business. Freed from the confines of city life, I discovereda love of being outside. I ran my own laundry business aswell, picking up laundry on campus several nights a week.

    My brother, Michael, earned a degree in pharmacy from the Universityof Michigan. On paper, our skills sounded like the perfectcombination for taking over the family business and finally relievingour mother of the pressure caused by Dad's premature death.Michael would be more on the technical side, I would handle thebusiness side.

    But after graduating with a bachelor of science degree in accountingin 1963, I postponed joining the family business a whilelonger and took a job with the Big Eight accounting firm of ArthurYoung & Company. I was the youngest staff person they ever recruitedin New York City and I stayed for almost five years.

    Some of the work I did at Arthur Young was in management consulting.I was 20 years old when I started, so I was never the seniorperson on major assignments, but I did do some consulting, as wellas staff accounting. I enjoyed that, and I was very good at what I did.It was important for me to get some outside experience in the businessworld so I could eventually bring a greater expertise to our owncompany.

    I was on the verge of becoming an audit manager in 1968, when Ichose to join the family business instead. The company had beengrowing and doing well, and my mother and brother were anxious tohave me finally take my place beside them. One of my father's brotherswas involved with it, as was a cousin. It truly was a family business.

    It was very different than what I had expected after all those years.I was prepared to roll up my sleeves and do what it took for the businessto be successful, and I understood the responsibilities that Iwould have then would be very different than what I had at ArthurYoung, and they certainly were. The environment, certainly, was verydifferent. But that was okay with me. And I enjoyed my work whenI was there. I worked very hard, very long hours. But it was not agrowth situation from a professional standpoint.

    It was hard for me to work with my brother and my mother. Iloved them both very much, but it was impossible. I spent a couple ofyears working there, and then my mother sold the business to theDaylin Corporation on June 1, 1968. When my father died in 1957, itwas a very small business. By the time she sold it, my mother hadbuilt the company up to several million dollars in volume. Daylin wasa conglomerate centered in the retail business, with an emphasis inpharmacy and health goods.

    If you have a family where family members can work together,that is wonderful. But it doesn't often happen, and it didn't happen inour situation. I love my mother, I love my brother, but we were notmeant to work together every day. And I think Mother finally sawthat, too.

    I think selling the company was the right decision for her. As awidow and mother, her primary interest was not building a hugebusiness but conserving its equity and resources. She was too concernedabout her own future at that time to think in terms of risk andexpansion.

    When Daylin took over, we all stayed with the business for a whilelonger, but I really didn't feel that staying in that business was what Iwanted to do long-term. It was still hard for me to work with mymother.

    Fortunately, Daylin was a company of infinite opportunity. * * *

    In 1970, Daylin named me chief financial officer of Elliott's DrugStores/Stripe Discount Stores. Two years later, I became president ofElliott's/Stripe and relocated the company and my wife and our threechildren to Griffin, Georgia. They actually call it "The First CitySouth of Atlanta."

    Between 1972 and 1974, my responsibilities at Elliott's/Stripe includedbeing named assistant treasurer of the parent company. MaxCandiotty, the president of Daylin, and Leon Beck, the corporation'ssenior vice president and lead financial officer, adopted and mentoredme. They saw potential in me and were very supportive duringmy career there.

    When I became president of the division, it was kind of a shock tothe rest of the Daylin organization because I was a very young man inmy late twenties. I hadn't run a business of that magnitude. I had onlybeen involved in business at Arthur Young from the work I had donethere, and, of course, my family business. So it was a major move, butit turned out well. I did a good job for them, and I grew the businessand gave them the kind of earnings they were looking for.

    I remember having many good personal relationships at Daylin inthose days. It was a less structured, less hierarchical corporate environment,a family culture where people supported each other andcared for each other.

    Becoming president of that division at an early age fed my entrepreneurialspirit. It encouraged my capacity for starting and runninga business, for wanting to make decisions, for wanting to be a part ofeverything.

    In July 1974, Daylin was going through some very difficult times.That's when it decided to sell off some divisions, one of which wasmine, the freestanding drug stores. I said, that's fine. I'm 32 yearsold—I'll do something else.

    That's when Bernie called me from Handy Dan. We had met afew years earlier at Daylin corporate events and established a solidrapport. He named me corporate controller of Handy Dan; later, mytitle changed to vice president of finance.

    In baseball, the pitcher is often the center of attention. That wasBernie. But the catcher is in the middle of the action, helping set thepace of the game. During our time at Handy Dan and subsequentlyat The Home Depot, Bernie and I have been effective as team playersin roles in which we both feel comfortable.

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The Help

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In Jackson, Mississippi, in 1962, there are lines that are not crossed. With the civil rights movement exploding all around them, three women start a movement of their own, forever changing a town and the way women--black and white, mothers and daughters--view one another.

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Killing Lincoln

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Chapter Thirty-Three

Friday, April 14, 1865
Washington, D.C.
3:30 P.M.

"Crook," Abraham Lincoln says to his bodyguard, "I believe there are men who want to take my life. And I have no doubt that they will do it."

The two men are walking down Pennsylvania Avenue, on their way back to the War Department for their second meeting of the day. Lincoln wants a short session with Stanton to discuss the fate of a Confederate ringleader who very recently made the mistake of crossing the border from Canada back into the United States. Stanton is in favor of arresting the man, while Lincoln prefers to let him slip away to England on the morning steamer. As soon as Lincoln makes his point, he aims to hurry back to the White House for the carriage ride he promised Mary.

William Crook is fond of the president and deeply unsettled by the comments.

"Why do you think so, Mr. President?"

Crook steps forward as they come upon a group of angry drunks. He puts his body between theirs and Lincoln's, thus clearing the way for the president's safe passage. Crook's actions, while brave, are unnecessary—if the drunks realize that the president of the United States is sharing the same sidewalk, they give no notice.

Lincoln waits until Crook is beside him again, then continues his train of thought. "Other men have been assassinated," Lincoln says.

"I hope you are mistaken, Mr. President."

"I have perfect confidence in those around me. In every one of you men. I know that no one could do it and escape alive," Lincoln says. The two men walk in silence before he finishes his thought: "But if it is to be done, it is impossible to prevent it."

At the War Department, Lincoln once again invites Stanton and telegraph chief Major Thomas Eckert, the man who can break fireplace pokers over his arms, to attend Our American Cousin that night. Both men turn him down once again. Lincoln is upset by their rejection, but he doesn't show it outwardly. The only indication comes on the walk back to the White House, when he admits to Crook, "I do not want to go." Lincoln says it like a man facing a death sentence.

Inside the White House, Lincoln is pulled into an unscheduled last-minute meeting that will delay his carriage ride. Lincoln hides his exasperation and dutifully meets with New Hampshire congressman Edward H. Rollins. But as soon as Rollins leaves, yet another petitioner begs a few minutes of Lincoln's time. A weary Lincoln, all too aware that Mary will be most upset if he keeps her waiting much longer, gives former military aide Colonel William Coggeshall the benefit of a few moments.

Finally, Lincoln marches down the stairs and heads for the carriage. He notices a one-armed soldier standing off to one side of the hallway and overhears the young man tell another, "I would almost give my other hand if I could shake that of Lincoln."

Lincoln can't resist. "You shall do that and it shall cost you nothing, boy," he exclaims, smiling broadly as he walks over and grasps the young man's hand. He asks his name, that of his regiment, and in which battle he lost the arm.

Only then does Lincoln say his farewells and step outside. He finds Mary waiting at the carriage. She's in a tentative mood—they've spent so little time alone in the past few months that being together, just the two of them, feels strange. She wonders if Lincoln might be more comfortable if they brought some friends along for the open-air ride.

"I prefer to ride by ourselves today," he insists. Lincoln helps her into the barouche and then is helped up from the gravel driveway to take his seat beside her. The four-wheeled horse-drawn carriage features two facing double seats for passengers and a retractable roof. The driver sits in a box seat up front. Lincoln opts to keep the roof open, then covers their laps with a blanket, even though the temperature is a warm sixty-eight degrees.

The war has been hard on their marriage. Mary is delighted beyond words to see that Lincoln is in a lighthearted mood. She gazes into her husband's eyes and recognizes the man who once courted her.

"Dear Husband," she laughs, "you startle me by your great cheerfulness. I have not seen you so happy since before Willie's death."

"And well I may feel so, Mary. I consider this day, the war has come to a close." The president pauses. "We must both be more cheerful in the future—between the war and the loss of our darling Willie we have been very miserable."

Coachman Francis Burns guides the elegant pair of black horses down G Street. The pace is a quick trot. Behind them ride two cavalry escorts, just for safety. The citizens of Washington are startled to see the Lincolns out on the town. They hear loud laughter from Mary as the barouche passes by and see a grin spread across the president's face. When a group calls out to him as the carriage turns onto New Jersey Avenue, he doffs his trademark stovepipe hat in greeting.

• • • 

Throughout the war, Lincoln has stayed in the moment, never allowing himself to dream of the future. But now he pours his heart out to Mary, talking about a proposed family trip to Palestine, for he is most curious about the Holy Land. And after he leaves office he wants the family to return to their roots in Illinois, where he will once again hang out his shingle as a country lawyer. The "Lincoln & Herndon" sign has never been taken down, at Lincoln's specific request to his partner.

"Mary," Lincoln says, "we have had a hard time of it since we came to Washington, but the war is over, and with God's blessing we may hope for four years of peace and happiness, and then we will go back to Illinois and pass the rest of our lives in quiet. We have laid by some money, and during this term we will try to save up more."

The carriage makes its way to the Navy Yard, where Lincoln steps on board USS Montauk. His intent is just a cursory peek at the storied ironclad, with its massive round turret constituting the deck's superstructure. But soon its crew mobs Lincoln, and he is forced to politely excuse himself so that he can return to Mary. Unbeknownst to Lincoln, the Montauk will soon serve another purpose.

Lincoln offers a final salute to the many admirers as coachman Burns turns the carriage back toward the White House. It's getting late, and the Lincolns have to be at the theater.

John Wilkes Booth is expecting them.


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The Hunger Games

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The acclaimed author of the "New York Times"-bestselling Underland Chronicles series delivers equal parts suspense and philosophy, adventure and romance, in a stunning novel set in a future with unsettling parallels to the present."Forget Edward and Jacob: by book's end (and it's a cliffhanger), readers will be picking sides--Peeta or Gale?" 06/22/2009

"Beyond the expert world building, the acute social commentary and the large cast of fully realized characters, there's action, intrigue, romance and some amount of hope in a story readers will find completely engrossing." 07/01/2009

"Though more of the story takes place outside the arena than within, this sequel has enough action to please HUNGER GAMES fans and leaves enough questions tantalizingly unanswered for readers to be desperate for the next installment." 09/01/2009

"Collins has done that rare thing. She has written a sequel that improves upon the first book." - Gabrielle Zevin 10/11/2009


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Fifty Shades Trilogy

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Now available as a three-volume paperback boxed set, E L James’s New York Times #1 bestselling trilogy has been hailed by Entertainment Weekly as being “in a class by itself.” Beginning with the GoodReads Choice Award Romance Finalist Fifty Shades of Grey, the Fifty Shades Trilogy will obsess you, possess you, and stay with you forever.

This boxed set includes the following novels:

FIFTY SHADES OF GREY: When college student Anastasia Steele goes to interview young entrepreneur Christian Grey, she encounters a man who is beautiful, brilliant, and intimidating. The unworldly Ana realizes she wants this man, and Grey admits he wants her, too—but on his own terms. When the couple embarks on a daring, passionately physical affair, Ana discovers Christian’s secrets and explores her own desires.

FIFTY SHADES DARKER: Daunted by Christian’s dark secrets and singular tastes, Ana has broken off their relationship to start a new career. But desire for Christian still dominates her every waking thought. They rekindle their searing sensual affair, and while Christian wrestles with his inner demons, Ana is forced to make the most important decision of her life.

FIFTY SHADES FREED: Now, Ana and Christian have it all—love, passion, intimacy, wealth, and a world of possibilities for their future. But Ana knows that loving her Fifty Shades will not be easy, and that being together will pose challenges that neither of them would anticipate. Just when it seems that their strength together will eclipse any obstacle, misfortune, malice, and fate conspire to turn Ana’s deepest fears into reality.


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Outdoor Life The Ultimate Survival Manual

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Filled with clear, concise instructions, helpful diagrams, essential checklists, and inspirational first-person stories, these are real-life "extreme survival" stories of amazing feats that inform, entertain and feature disaster survival scenarios in a number of international situations.

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Catching Fire

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Suzanne Collins is the author of the blockbuster series The Hunger Games, which has topped both hardcover and paperback bestseller lists and which has garnered a huge fan following of both children and adults. Because her father was in the military, Suzanne and her family moved frequently during her childhood. When she was six, he was sent by the Air Force to serve in Vietnam. He also taught military history at West Point and was determined to educate his own children about world events and the horrors of war--themes Collins would later revisit in her books. They lived for a time in Brussels, and she remembers how her father--aware that she liked a large field of poppies that grew outside of the family's home--connected it to the World War I-era poem "In Flanders Field," which honors soldiers buried in a similar field. Collins believes that it is important for young people to understand the ramifications of violence at an early age. "If we wait too long [to teach them], what kind of expectation can we have?" she has said. "We think we're sheltering them, but what we're doing is putting them at a disadvantage." After earning a master's degree in dramatic writing from New York University, she began her professional career by penning scripts for children's television shows, including CLARISSA EXPLAINS IT ALL. Her first young-adult series, The Underland Chronicles, focuses on a boy who must navigate a fantastical land hidden beneath the streets of New York City. While those books won her many fans, her next effort, The Hunger Games, brought her a new level of fame. Collins has explained how she got the idea for the series, about a dystopia in which young people are chosen to fight to the death once a year for the entertainment of an audience: "I was channel surfing between reality TV programming and actual war coverage when [the] story came to me," she has said. "One night I'm sitting there flipping around and on one channel there's a group of young people competing for, I don't know, money maybe? And on the next, there's a group of young people fighting an actual war. And I was tired, and the lines began to blur in this very unsettling way, and I thought of this story." Collins oversaw the screenplay for the 2012 film version of the first book in the trilogy, which earned more than $150 million the first weekend of its release. While the media frenzy surrounding her books has been compared to that generated by the HARRY POTTER and TWILIGHT series, Collins prefers to stay out of the spotlight--living with her actor husband and children and giving few interviews."Collins has done that rare thing. She has written a sequel that improves upon the first book." - Gabrielle Zevin 10/11/2009

"Beyond the expert world building, the acute social commentary and the large cast of fully realized characters, there's action, intrigue, romance and some amount of hope in a story readers will find completely engrossing." 07/01/2009

"Forget Edward and Jacob: by book's end (and it's a cliffhanger), readers will be picking sides--Peeta or Gale?" 06/22/2009


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Fifty Shades Darker (Fifty Shades Trilogy Book Two)

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PROLOGUE
He’s come back. Mommy’s asleep or she’s sick again.
I hide and curl up small under the table in the kitchen. Through my fingers I can see Mommy. She is asleep on the couch. Her hand is on the sticky green rug, and he’s wearing his big boots with the shiny buckle and standing over Mommy shouting.
He hits Mommy with a belt. Get up! Get up! You are one fucked-up bitch. You are one fucked-up bitch. You are one fucked-up bitch. You are one fucked-up bitch. You are one fucked-up bitch. You are one fucked-up bitch.
Mommy makes a sobbing noise. Stop. Please stop. Mommy doesn’t scream. Mommy curls up small.
I have my fingers in my ears, and I close my eyes. The sound stops.
He turns and I can see his boots as he stomps into the kitchen. He still has the belt. He is trying to find me.
He stoops down and grins. He smells nasty. Of cigarettes and drink. There you are, you little shit.
A chilling wail wakes him. Christ! He’s drenched in sweat and his heart is pounding. What the fuck? He sits bolt upright in bed and puts his head in hands. Fuck. They’re back. The noise was me. He takes a deep steadying breath, trying to rid his mind and nostrils of the smell of cheap bourbon and stale Camel cigarettes.
CHAPTER ONE
I have survived Day Three Post-Christian, and my first day at work. It has been a welcome distraction. The time has flown by in a haze of new faces, work to do, and Mr. Jack Hyde. Mr. Jack Hyde . . . he smiles down at me, his blue eyes twinkling, as he leans against my desk.
“Excellent work, Ana. I think we’re going to make a great
team.”
Somehow, I manage to curl my lips upward in a semblance of a smile.
“I’ll be off, if that’s okay with you,” I murmur.
“Of course, it’s five thirty. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Good night, Jack.”
“Good night, Ana.”
Collecting my bag, I shrug on my jacket and head for the door.
Out in the early evening air of Seattle, I take a deep breath. It doesn’t begin to fill the void in my chest, a void that’s been present since Saturday morning, a painful hollow reminder of my loss. I walk toward the bus stop with my head down, staring at my feet and contemplating being without my beloved Wanda, my old Beetle . . . or the Audi.
I shut the door on that thought immediately. No. Don’t think about him. Of course, I can afford a car—a nice, new car. I suspect he has been overgenerous in his payment, and the thought leaves a bitter taste in my mouth, but I dismiss it and try to keep my mind as numb and as blank as possible. I can’t think about him. I don’t want to start crying again—not out on the street.
The apartment is empty. I miss Kate, and I imagine her lying on a beach in Barbados sipping a cool cocktail. I turn on the flat-screen television so there’s noise to fill the vacuum and provide some semblance of company, but I don’t listen or watch. I sit and stare blankly at the brick wall. I am numb. I feel nothing but the pain. How long must I endure this?
The door buzzer startles me from my anguish, and my heart skips a beat. Who could that be? I press the intercom.
“Delivery for Ms. Steele.” A bored, disembodied voice answers, and disappointment crashes through me. I listlessly make my way downstairs and find a young man noisily chewing gum, holding a large cardboard box, and leaning against the front door. I sign for the package and take it upstairs. The box is huge and surprisingly light. Inside are two dozen long-stemmed, white roses and a card.
Congratulations on your first day at work.
I hope it went well.
And thank you for the glider. That was very thoughtful.
It has pride of place on my desk.
Christian
I stare at the typed card, the hollow in my chest expanding. No doubt, his assistant sent this. Christian probably had very little to do with it. It’s too painful to think about. I examine the roses—they are beautiful, and I can’t bring myself to throw them in the trash. Dutifully, I make my way into the kitchen to hunt down a vase.
And so a pattern develops: wake, work, cry, sleep. Well, try to sleep. I can’t even escape him in my dreams. Gray burning eyes, his lost look, his hair burnished and bright all haunt me. And the music . . . so much music—I cannot bear to hear any music. I am careful to avoid it at all costs. Even the jingles in commercials make me shudder.
I have spoken to no one, not even my mother or Ray. I don’t have the capacity for idle talk now. No, I want none of it. I have become my own island state. A ravaged, war-torn land where nothing grows and the horizons are bleak. Yes, that’s me. I can interact impersonally at work, but that’s it. If I talk to Mom, I know I will break even further—and I have nothing left to break.
I am finding it difficult to eat. By lunchtime on Wednesday, I manage a cup of yogurt, and it’s the first thing I’ve eaten since Friday. I am surviving on a newfound tolerance for lattes and Diet Coke. It’s the caffeine that keeps me going, but it’s making me anxious.
Jack has started to hover over me, irritating me, asking me personal questions. What does he want? I’m polite, but I need to keep him at arm’s length.
I sit and begin trawling through a pile of correspondence addressed to him, and I’m pleased with the distraction of menial work. My e-mail pings, and I quickly check to see who it’s from.
Holy shit. An e-mail from Christian. Oh no, not here . . . not at work.
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:05
To: Anastasia Steele
Dear Anastasia
Forgive this intrusion at work. I hope that it’s going well. Did you get my flowers?
I note that tomorrow is the gallery opening for your friend’s show, and I’m sure you’ve not had time to purchase a car, and it’s a long drive. I would be more than happy to take you—should you wish.
Let me know.
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.
Tears swim in my eyes. I hastily leave my desk and bolt to the restroom to escape into one of the stalls. José’s show. I’d forgotten all about it, and I promised him I’d go. Shit, Christian is right; how am I going to get there?
I clutch my forehead. Why hasn’t José phoned? Come to think of it—why hasn’t anyone phoned? I’ve been so absentminded I haven’t noticed that my cell phone has been silent.
Shit! I am such an idiot! I still have it set to forward calls to the BlackBerry. Holy hell. Christian’s been getting my calls—unless he’s just thrown the BlackBerry away. How did he get my e-mail address?
He knows my shoe size; an e-mail address is hardly going to present him with many problems.
Can I see him again? Could I bear it? Do I want to see him? I close my eyes and tilt my head back as grief and longing lance through me. Of course I do.
Perhaps—perhaps I can tell him I’ve changed my mind . . . No, no, no. I cannot be with someone who takes pleasure in inflicting pain on me, someone who can’t love me.
Torturous memories flash through my mind—the gliding, holding hands, kissing, the bathtub, his gentleness, his humor, and his dark, brooding, sexy stare. I miss him. It’s been five days, five days of agony that has felt like an eternity. I cry myself to sleep at night, wishing I hadn’t walked out, wishing that he could be different, wishing that we were together. How long will this hideous overwhelming feeling last? I am in purgatory.
I wrap my arms around my body, hugging myself tightly, holding myself together. I miss him. I really miss him . . . I love him. Simple.
Anastasia Steele, you are at work! I must be strong, but I want to go to José’s show, and deep down, the masochist in me wants to see Christian. Taking a deep breath, I head back to my desk.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:25
To: Christian Grey
Hi Christian
Thank you for the flowers; they are lovely.
Yes, I would appreciate a lift.
Thank you.
Anastasia Steele
Assistant to Jack Hyde, Editor, SIP
Checking my phone, I find that it is still set to forward calls to the BlackBerry. Jack is in a meeting, so I quickly call José.
“Hi, José. It’s Ana.”
“Hello, stranger.” His tone is so warm and welcoming it’s almost enough to push me over the edge again.
“I can’t talk long. What time should I be there tomorrow for your show?”
“You’re still coming?” He sounds excited.
“Yes, of course.” I smile my first genuine smile in five days as I picture his broad grin.
“Seven thirty.”
“See you then. Good-bye, José.”
“Bye, Ana.”
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:27
To: Anastasia Steele
Dear Anastasia
What time shall I pick you up?
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:32
To: Christian Grey
José’s show starts at 7:30. What time would you suggest?
Anastasia Steele
Assistant to Jack Hyde, Editor, SIP
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:34
To: Anastasia Steele
Dear Anastasia
Portland is some distance away. I shall pick you up at 5:45.
I look forward to seeing you.
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Tomorrow
Date: June 8 2011 14:38
To: Christian Grey
See you then.
Anastasia Steele
Assistant to Jack Hyde, Editor, SIP
Oh my. I’m going to see Christian, and for the first time in five days, my spirits lift a fraction and I allow myself to wonder how he’s been.
Has he missed me? Probably not like I’ve missed him. Has he found a new submissive? The thought is so painful that I dismiss it immediately. I look at the pile of correspondence I need to sort for Jack and tackle it as I try to push Christian out of my mind once more.
That night in bed, I toss and turn, trying to sleep and it’s the first time in a while I haven’t cried myself to sleep.
In my mind’s eye, I visualize Christian’s face the last time I saw him as when I left. His tortured expression haunts me. I remember he didn’t want me to go, which was odd. Why would I stay when things had reached such an impasse? We were each skirting around our own issues—my fear of punishment, his fear of . . . what? Love?
Turning on my side, I hug my pillow, filled with an overwhelming sadness. He thinks he doesn’t deserve to be loved. Why does he feel that way? Does it have to do with his upbringing? His birth mom, the crack whore? My thoughts plague me into the early hours until eventually I fall into a fitful, exhausted sleep.
The day drags and drags and Jack is unusually attentive. I suspect it’s due to Kate’s plum dress and the black high-heeled boots I’ve stolen from her closet, but I don’t dwell on the thought. I resolve to go clothes shopping with my first paycheck. The dress is looser on me than it was, but I pretend not to notice.
Finally it’s five thirty, and I collect my jacket and purse, trying to quell my nerves. I’m going to see him!
“Do you have a date tonight?” Jack asks as he strolls past my desk on his way out.
“Yes. No. Not really.”
He raises an eyebrow, his interest clearly piqued. “Boyfriend?”
I flush. “No, a friend. An ex-boyfriend.”
“Maybe tomorrow you’d like to come for a drink after work. You’ve had a stellar first week, Ana. We should celebrate.” He smiles and an unknown, unsettling emotion flits across his face, making me uneasy.
Putting his hands in his pockets, he saunters through the double doors. I frown at his retreating back. Drinks with the boss, is that a good idea?
I shake my head. I have an evening of Christian Grey to get through first. How am I going to do this? I hurry into the restroom to make last-minute adjustments.
In the large mirror on the wall, I take a long, hard look at my face. I’m my usual pale self, dark circles around my too-large eyes. I look gaunt, haunted. I wish I knew how to use makeup. I apply some mascara and eyeliner and pinch my cheeks, hoping for some color. Tidying my hair so that it hangs artfully down my back, I take a deep breath. This will have to do.
Nervously I walk through the foyer with a smile and a wave to Claire at Reception. I think she and I could become friends. Jack is talking to Elizabeth as I head for the doors. Smiling broadly, he hurries over to open them for me.
“After you, Ana,” he murmurs.
“Thank you.” I smile, embarrassed.
Outside on the curb, Taylor is waiting. He opens the rear door of the car. I glance hesitantly at Jack, who has followed me out. He’s looking toward the Audi SUV in dismay.
I turn and climb into the back, and there he sits—Christian Grey—wearing his gray suit, no tie, white shirt open at the collar. His gray eyes are glowing.
My mouth dries. He looks glorious except he’s scowling at me. Why?
“When did you last eat?” he snaps as Taylor closes the door behind me.
Crap. “Hello, Christian. Yes, it’s nice to see you, too.”
“I don’t want your smart mouth now. Answer me.” His eyes blaze.
Holy shit. “Um . . . I had a yogurt at lunchtime. Oh—and a banana.”
“When did you last have a real meal?” he asks acidly.
Taylor slips into the driver’s seat, starts the car, and pulls out into the traffic.
I glance up and Jack is waving at me, though how he can see me through the dark glass, I don’t know. I wave back.
“Who’s that?” Christian snaps.
“My boss.” I peek up at the beautiful man beside me, and his mouth is pressed into a hard line.
“Well? Your last meal?”
“Christian, that really is none of your concern,” I murmur, feeling extraordinarily brave.
“Whatever you do concerns me. Tell me.”
No, it doesn’t. I groan in frustration, rolling my eyes heavenward, and Christian narrows his eyes. And for the first time in a long time, I want to laugh. I try hard to stifle the giggle that threatens to bubble up. Christian’s face softens as I struggle to keep a straight face, and a trace of a smile kisses his lovely sculptured lips.
“Well?” he asks, his voice softer.
“Pasta alla vongole, last Friday,” I whisper.
He closes his eyes as fury, and possibly regret, sweeps across his face. “I see,” he says, his voice expressionless. “You look like you’ve lost at least five pounds, possibly more since then. Please eat, Anastasia,” he scolds.
I stare down at the knotted fingers in my lap. Why does he always make me feel like an errant child?
He shifts and turns toward me. “How are you?” he asks, his voice still soft.
Well, I’m shit, really . . . I swallow. “If I told you I was fine, I’d be lying.”
He inhales sharply. “Me, too,” he murmurs and reaches over and clasps my hand. “I miss you,” he adds.
Oh no. Skin against skin.
“Christian, I—”
“Ana, please. We need to talk.”
I’m going to cry. No. “Christian, I . . . please . . . I’ve cried so much,” I whisper, trying to keep my emotions in check.
“Oh, baby, no.” He tugs my hand, and before I know it I’m on his lap. He has his arms around me, and his nose is in my hair.
“I’ve missed you so much, Anastasia,” he breathes.
I want to struggle out of his hold, to maintain some distance, but his arms are wrapped around me. He’s pressing me to his chest. I melt. Oh, this is where I want to be.
I rest my head against him, and he kisses my hair repeatedly. This is home. He smells of linen, fabric softener, body wash, and my favorite smell—Christian. For a moment, I allow myself the illusion that all will be well, and it soothes my ravaged soul.
A few minutes later Taylor pulls to a stop at the curb, even though we’re still in the city.
“Come”—Christian shifts me off his lap—“we’re here.”
What?
“Helipad—on the top of this building.” Christian glances toward the building by way of explanation.
Of course. Charlie Tango. Taylor opens the door and I slide out. He gives me a warm, avuncular smile that makes me feel safe. I smile back.
“I should give you back your handkerchief.”
“Keep it, Miss Steele, with my best wishes.”
I blush as Christian comes around the car and takes my hand. He looks quizzically at Taylor, who stares impassively back at him, revealing nothing.
“Nine?” Christian says to him.
“Yes, sir.”
Christian nods as he turns and leads me through the double doors into the grandiose foyer. I revel in the feel of his hand and his long, skilled fingers curled around mine. The familiar pull is there—I’m drawn, Icarus to his sun. I’ve been burned already, and yet here I am again.
Reaching the elevators, he presses the “call” button. I peek up at him, and he’s wearing his enigmatic half smile. As the doors open, he releases my hand and ushers me in.
The doors close and I risk a second peek. He glances down at me, and it’s there in the air between us, that electricity. It’s palpable. I can almost taste it, pulsing between us, drawing us together.
“Oh my,” I gasp as I bask briefly in the intensity of this visceral, primal attraction.
“I feel it, too,” he says, his eyes clouded and intense.
Desire pools dark and deadly in my groin. He clasps my hand and grazes my knuckles with his thumb, and all my muscles clench tightly, deliciously, deep inside me.
How can he still do this to me?
“Please don’t bite your lip, Anastasia,” he whispers.
I gaze up at him, releasing my lip. I want him. Here, now, in the elevator. How could I not?
“You know what it does to me,” he murmurs.
Oh, I still affect him. My inner goddess stirs from her five-day sulk.
Abruptly the doors open, breaking the spell, and we’re on the roof. It’s windy, and despite my black jacket, I’m cold. Christian puts his arm around me, pulling me into his side, and we hurry across to where Charlie Tango stands in the center of the helipad, with its rotor blades slowly spinning.
A tall, blond, square-jawed man in a dark suit leaps out and, ducking low, runs toward us. Shaking hands with Christian, he shouts above the noise of the rotors.
“Ready to go, sir. She’s all yours!”
“All checks done?”
“Yes, sir.”
“You’ll collect her around eight thirty?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Taylor’s waiting for you out front.”
“Thank you, Mr. Grey. Safe flight to Portland. Ma’am.” He salutes me. Without releasing me, Christian nods, ducks down, and leads me to the helicopter door.
Once inside he buckles me firmly into my harness, cinching the straps tight. He gives me a knowing look and his secret smile.
“This should keep you in your place,” he murmurs. “I must say I like this harness on you. Don’t touch anything.”
I flush a deep crimson, and he runs his index finger down my cheek before handing me the headphones. I’d like to touch you, too, but you won’t let me. I scowl. Besides, he’s pulled the straps so tight I can barely move.
He sits in his seat and buckles himself in, then starts running through all his preflight checks. He’s just so competent. It’s very alluring. He puts on his headphones and flips a switch and the rotors speed up, deafening me.
Turning, he gazes at me. “Ready, baby?” His voice echoes through the headphones.
“Yes.”
He grins his boyish grin. Wow—I’ve not seen it for so long.
“Sea-Tac tower, this is Charlie Tango Golf—Golf Echo Hotel, cleared for takeoff to Portland via PDX. Please confirm, over.”
The disembodied voice of the air traffic controller answers, issuing instructions.
“Roger, tower, Charlie Tango set, over and out.” Christian flips two switches, grasps the stick, and the helicopter rises slowly and smoothly into the evening sky.
Seattle and my stomach drop away from us, and there’s so much to see.
“We’ve chased the dawn, Anastasia, now the dusk,” his voice comes through on the headphones. I turn and gape at him in surprise.
What does this mean? How is it that he can say the most romantic things? He smiles, and I can’t help my shy smile.
“As well as the evening sun, there’s more to see this time,” he says.
The last time we flew to Seattle it was dark, but this evening the view is spectacular, literally out of this world. We’re up among the tallest buildings, going higher and higher.
“Escala’s over there.” He points toward the building. “Boeing there, and you can just see the Space Needle.”
I crane my head. “I’ve never been.”
“I’ll take you—we can eat there.”
“Christian, we broke up.”
“I know. I can still take you there and feed you.” He glares at me.
I shake my head and decide not to antagonize him. “It’s very beautiful up here, thank you.”
“Impressive, isn’t it?”
“Impressive that you can do this.”
“Flattery from you, Miss Steele? But I’m a man of many talents.”
“I’m fully aware of that, Mr. Grey.”
He turns and smirks at me, and for the first time in five days, I relax a little. Perhaps this won’t be so bad.
“How’s the new job?”
“Good, thank you. Interesting.”
“What’s your boss like?”
“Oh, he’s okay.” How can I tell Christian that Jack makes me uncomfortable? Christian glances at me.
“What’s wrong?” he asks.
“Aside from the obvious, nothing.”
“The obvious?”
“Oh, Christian, you really are very obtuse sometimes.”
“Obtuse? Me? I’m not sure I appreciate your tone, Miss Steele.”
“Well, don’t, then.”
His lips twitch into a smile. “I have missed your smart mouth, Anastasia.”
I gasp and I want to shout, I’ve missed you—all of you—not just your mouth! But I keep quiet and gaze out the glass fishbowl that is Charlie Tango’s windshield as we continue south. The dusk is to our right, the sun low on the horizon—large, blazing fiery orange—and I am Icarus again, flying far too close.

Continues...

Excerpted from Fifty Shades Darker by E L James Copyright © 2012 by E L James. Excerpted by permission of Vintage, a division of Random House, Inc.
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